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iwantppltoseetherealem
03:08
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I've been pretending for a long long time
Been wearing masks nearly all my life
Play a pretty girl, play a pretty wife
But I'm tired of that bullshit, I'm tired of that life
I want ppl to see the real me
Cause all I want is community
The Dalai Lama says there's so such thing as a real me
But Mr. Dalai Lama, I have to respectfully disagree
'Cause I've been wearing masks since the tender age of 3
And I'm tired of living a life under such falsity
A couple months ago I met someone who changed my life
They changed the way I see myself
A couple months ago I met someone who changed my life
They said I could be myself
And I don't gotta be nobody else
Maybe without these
masks
Without this
pain
Without this
smile
Without this
body
Without this
trauma
All I want is community
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2. |
star child
05:06
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maybe i'm a star child
maybe i'm an angel
far away from home
maybe i'm an earthling
probably a human
totally alone
i never talk about suicide
it's one of those things that I try to hide
i want ppl to think that i'm alright
besides
i've been kept up too many nights
worried my dad fell from a height
worried my sibling lost the fight
worried my ex husband caught the knife
worried my friend took their own life
cause i don't even know who i am
though everybody tells me
i don't even know who i am
though everybody tells me
i don't have close relationships with anyone
the few times i did, i came undone
and i can't have sex for fun-
it's too meaningful-
and i can't be with just one
and anxiety makes me run
cause i can't be a boy or a girl
though everybody tells me
and i don't quite fit into this world
though everybody tells me
and i try to tell you who i am
but you try to tell me who i am
and i try to tell you who i am
and i try to tell you who i am
and i try to, try to, try to, try to,tryto,trytotryto
maybe i'm a star child maybe i'm an angel far away from home maybe i'm an earthling
probably an earthling
either way i am alone
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you were four
i was five
and we played hugging monsters
you were four
i was five
and we played kissing monsters
you were the color green
and i was shimmering
you were four
i was five
i was eight
you were nine
and we played with barbie dolls
i was eight
you were nine
and we played my little ponies
you were the rocks i kept under the bed
and i was shimmering
i was eight
you were nine
i was eleven
you were twelve
and we played with your snakes
i was eleven
you were twelve
and we played super nintendo
i was in love with the polish boy
(-but i should have been in love with you-)
i was eleven
you were twelve
i was twenty one
you were twenty three
and we drank sierra nevada
i was twenty one
you were twenty three
and we sat and played guitar
i know you'll think this song is about you
(that's okay 'cause some songs are!)
i was twenty one
you were twenty three
and we got married
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something Warm
something Kind
something Tender
something Bright
something Rainbows and Light
will it ever ever be mine
you are Warm
you are Kind
you are Tender
you are Bright
you are Rainbows and Light
you will never ever be mine
i'm not Warm
i'm not Kind
i'm not Tender
i'm not Bright
i'm not Rainbows and Light
but honestly baby
honestly baby
i am DARK
and i am MEAN
i am ROUGH
and i'm OBSCENE
i'm the darkest side of Bright
and baby
i'm Alright!
...
:-D
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love is a glance
love's holding hands
love is looking into each other's eyes
as the day turns into night
i loved you once
so i'll always, i'll always love you
forever in that s p a c e and ti me
love is a word
love is the truth
love is the secrets we share
underneath the light of the moon
you loved me once
so you'll always, you'll always love me
forever in that s p a c e and ti me
love never ends
it just transforms
and love, in my experience,
doesn't weather many storms
but the sunny days are beautiful
and i remember all of them
with her and him and them
they loved me once
so they'll always, they'll always love me
forever in that s p a c e and ti me
i loved them once
so i'll always, i'll always love them
forever in that s p a c e and ti me
forever in that
s p a c e
a n d
t i m e
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Vero Astala Chicago, Illinois
bherohno, currently Vero Astala, formerly micha ♥ goolsby, has been through some shit.
They/he is an artist who lives in Chicago
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Vero Astala recommends:
Spring Semester Abroad
by ZeroAtBest
Because they are AMAZING people who write about real shit and I feel alive when I listen to them.
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